more stressed

haiz.. i'm so stressed!! i hate my life.. i hate everything!! life sucks! nothing is going right!!

pissed

Arrgghhhhhh!!!!! bad day!! first of all, the lab test.. haiz.. expected.. gonna do badly.. so, i'm not really concerned about it... I have no common sense and so damn stupid and blur!! damn..

didn't able to do java project today.. but nvm.. at least we studied dfund for a while.. so, we didn't waste our time.. :))

tkd training was the worst of the worst!! was so damn PISSED!!!!!! I've nvr been so pissed off wif a person for a very long time.. *boiling!!!* and its not only me.. many ppl were rather pissed off too.. damn.. i nearly cried.. dunno y.. sometimes too pissed off wif a person will have an urge to cry.. but den, when come to think of it, it's so not worth it to cry over it.. not gonna spoil my entry.. let's say sth nice too..

haha.. and we've a new name for our pattern team!! "Lemon" haha.. know y? but, i would like to say "secret!!" hahax.. its our team's own secret.. ;)

oh.. i dun have to work liao.. hehex.. cos kat found a temporary part timer liao.. cool!! I have more time to study le!!

all right, i'm tired now.. wanna sleep liao!!


ps: trying hard to lose 3kg now.

IMH

Went to IMH today.. haiz.. very disappointed wif the trip.. I thought we will be touring around the wards and see many different kinds of mentally disabled patients.. but, we didn't..

well, the min we stepped into IMH, there's this middle-aged man telling us tt he is singapore's Bruce Lee.. he can even kill an elephant wif one punch! lolx.. den Haikal showed one punch to him too.. hahaz.. its a good start.. but tts the end too.. no more interesting stuffs happened..

we were entertaining ourselves most of the time.. the lecture was rather boring... but still, i've learned about the IMH's history.. and we shouldn't look down on ppl who are/were mentally disabled.. they are normal ppl jus like us.. and who knows, maybe they are even better than the normal us.. and as usual, the stuffs working in the hospitals are the most noble one.. sacrificed a lot for the patients just to make sure they can recover..

well, wan tian is gonna be our future nurse too!! :)) work hard and do us proud!

Java lab test tml.. ZzzzZzz.. i'm gonna be so damn dead.. i dunnoe how to do... die liao la. i dun want to fail and den repeat the subject for the next semester.. hate it!! who wants to repeat a subject tt u hate right? and the teacher is not really good lor.. I would rather there are more PCB labs or other subjects than this thingy.. -_-

Haiz.. how much i'm complaining, i'm still having the lab test tml.. arrgghhh!! can i dun face reality? can i be unrealistic? can i skip this lab test just for once?? haiz.. sad to say, the answer is definitely NO!!

To make myself better, i gotta bluff myself liao.. my ego and super ego are in bad terms now.. fighting for their rights...

trying to download the Jcreator now.. its so last min right?? lab test is tml and i'm downloading it now.. and u know wad?? the estimated time is 15 freaking hours?!! damn.. the file is super big la.. think i'm not gonna download it liao.. just wait and die.. hahaz..


can't sign in to msn too.. sianx.. life is so corked up nowadays... TKD is not going on our way too.. Pattern team.. r we tt lousy?? r we tt hard to handle? wadever.. our team is trying our best now and we are strong too.. we have our strengths too.. we are hardworking too.. I know we are not as strong as the other team but determine it only after the result is out!

feeling much better now.. wif all the grumblings.. guess my mood is very bad today.. i even ate 4 or 5 chocolates!! see how bad my mood was?!

k la.. gtg liao.. ciaos!

dlunm

back to work

went out wif lin na last night.. accompanied her to do project.. went to Clark Quay.. she needa take pics for her project.. after that, went to TCC to have gals tok.. as usual.. we shared our problems.. compared to her problems, mine is nth.. felt sad for her too..

we chatted till 1 plus den walked to her hse.. on our way back, we passed by some new built buildings den we stopped to take pics.. hahahz.. zi lian.. well, we were crazy enough to do all kinds of shots.. even lied down on the floor.. and den one guy came and asked

"were ur the ones who lied on the floor jus now?"

LLnLN:" ya"

man:" oh... from the camera, i thought its some children.. y ur lie down there?"

LL:" oh.. we zi lian *points the camera to him*"

man:" *laughed out loud*"

hahaz.. he is from the building's management.. saw us in his office.. thru camera.. we were both super pai seh..

reached her hse at 3am++ den managed to sleep at 4plus.. woke up at 9am.. nt enough sleep nehx!

oh.. Kat called me last night.. she asked me to go back to work.. cos our dear Judy is suffering from dunno wad cancer.. sadx.. hope she will recover soon!! i like her a lot.. she has to undergo therapy now..

come to think of working again, i'm excited!! i like the enviroment.. the sense of satisfation when the customers compliments me.. when they go back to the shop jus to look for me.. and become my own customer.. would even try and look for me when its not my working day.. starting on saturday.. will be doing on sat and sun.. hope i can juggle my studies and work well.. cos exams are coming.. and the quizes starting next week!! and i dun even know wad the hell the teacher is teaching.. copy blindly onli..

-e device lab test- tml
-java quiz 2 - tues
java lab test - thurs

sianz.. see how i die in lab test on thurs.. ZZzz

well, trying to upload tkd photos now.. super slow..

pics we took last night will upload some other day when lin na send me..

finally.. here are the pics!! we went to kbox after the demo on fri.. :))

alright.. ciaos!

tkd demo!!

Finally, i'm back blogging.. haha.. did ur miss me?? blame my com ba.. i dun like to switch on my computer.. its always giving me problems.. well, not gonna complain about my com again..


i'm also busy wif tkd demonstration on thurs and today.. had tkd for 5 consecutive days!! know how tired i am now??!! but nvm.. i can endure it! all ended liao.. well, i shall blog abt our demo ba..

First day of demo

reached sch at 11++am to reherse.. den went to demo liao.. oh well, its not a standard demo .. the woods did not break. for our self defence one, i didn't throw shawn hard enough.. he had to act.. ZZzz..

khid fell down after the wood broke.. *ouch* and jordan too.. he didn't succeed in breaking the wood too.. adding to the worst, he fell down during the second try when he flew over daniel and khid.. wei sheng asked him to stop.. he was being demoralised.. sad..

wei sheng did not break all the woods too.. and shi xing accidentally injured hon sonn.. poor guy.. bad day for us..

however, our mood was not affected! we went back having fun in taking pics.. and craps.. i tried to break a wood too and whatsmore? i broke the wood using slaming kick! hahax.. but.. it after 3 tries.. i lost the wood though.. sad.. then can't take hm to liu lian..


2nd day of demo

Baygone learnt about the bad day we had.. so, he promised to come down today to help out.. he's so good la.. specially took half day off just to make sure we are doing well... woots!!

Jordan had phobia flying over danial and khid in the morning.. but after baygone's help, he finally overcame it! for self defence, shawn was happy wif the way i threw him... woots! haha.. but its not baygone's expectation.. nvm.. at least andre said we did make a lil improvment..

improvements we made
1. khid didn't fall down
2. Jordan flew over daniel and khid and broke the wood sucessfully
3. shi xing did not injure hon sonn again
4. i'm fiercer today
5.i broke another wood again using only one try! wif slamming kick. and i took back hm.. hehex..


mistakes
1. some woods not broken
2. shi xing injured yoke bing instead and his thumb got dislocate .. but after baygon's magic hand, he recovered! lolx .


conclusion

after the demo, i've learnt a lot.. i've learnt a new cheer today.. hahaz...

tp! SA!
TP! SA!
TP! SA! SA! SA!

SA is kill..

i like gui wen's msn nick too.. "A word of encouragment during a failure is worth more than an hour of praise after sucess." meaningful right?

its very sad and discourged when we fail.. but the effort tt we put in, cooperations and the encouragements tt we give each other is more than anything else..

we had fun too.. get to know more ppl.. overall, its a nice experiance.. hope next year will be a better one!

kill!!

saw miss chow and chen lao shi on thurs.. peng peng they all came.. too bad.. audrey didn't manage to come..

annie came today too!! sorry gal.. can't bring u around..

alright, i'm super tired liao.. ciaos!!

personality test

psychology has lotsa test.. this is one of it..

ESFP - "Entertainer". Radiates attractive warmth and optimism. Smooth, witty, charming, clever. Fun to be with. Very generous. 8.5% of the total population.

Free Jung Personality Test (similar to Myers-Briggs/MBTI)

quite true though.. :p

random

today's weather can best represent my feelings today.. feeling gloomy.. perhaps, its the weather tt is forcing me to do reflections.. cold weather may be nice.. no persperiration.. but it's my most emotional period too..

I tend to think a lot.. sometimes too much for me to digest..

we always hope tt others will listen to our probs and grumblings.. me too.. i'm yearning for a listening ear.. but, i'm not the only person who has probs.. i want my close ones to listen to me.. but they have their own problems too.. i can't be selfish..

life still goes on.. so, i'll always tell myself "its no big deal! shake tt off!" tt's the only way for me to stay strong.

my family members had always been saying tt i'm so dependent on others.. well, at times i hate to admit that, i'm not an independent gal.. i can't solve a problem by myself.. have to rely others to help me accomplish it.. i can't think of any problems tt is solved by myself..

alright, i dun wan my visitors' feelings to be affected by me..

i shall stop here.. there are tonnes of homework waiting for me to complete!! ciaos!!

dreamingofu..
heavenknows

Came hm the earlist today... for the past few days, i had been coming back hm during mid-night hours.. projects.. projects, trainings, trainings and more trainings..

becos of the open hse, we have to train OT.. trained until 10+pm. one good news is, i dun have to be thrown.. i throw ppl!! HAHA!! and guess wad? the person i'm throwing is none other than shawn! lucky he's skinny.. if not, my body and arm will be fractured too.. now, the 3 guys tt are involved in armstrong are all injured.. have been hearing their grumblings.. i'm not tt good also..

my whole body is suffering from muscle ache.. wondering whether yanning and michelle are also facing the same prob anot.. but i think they shld be ok.. they went for training more than me..

well, i'm stealing some time off from doing the java assignment to come here...

dunno how to do sia..

feeling kinda moody.. tts y.. no mood to do..

feelinglost..
naivethinking

he called me 'LL'!!

unity

STRESS!! pcb, java, psychology project.. gosh!! its 12.35am now, and i've not completed the PCB assignment.. and its the first period!! adding to the worst, lesson starts at 9am leh!! java another prob.. how to do?! stress..

anyway, had grading today.. i'm so super duper nervous la! I thought i will do well this time.. because we trained quite a lot of times liao.. and i know all the steps crystal clear.. can even teach shawn and hon sonn..

BUT! when the grading starts, i did find in the beginning.. but at the later part, wow kao!! I dunno wad went wrong wif my brain!! i stumbled.. dunno wad to do.. had to look at cat.. and in my heart, i went "gosh!! die liao.. mus redo.." and, after all the ppl had finished.. yupx.. the judge asked me to redo..

2nd time.. but better than first time.. did all the steps correctly.. but very slow.. do ur know how anxious i was?? i nearly made mistakes again.. my heart was beating as fast as a fish struggling on land.. i'm so glad tt i dun have heart disease.. luckily i was not called to do for the third time.. and i thought i needa do for the third time.. but its not me.. its pei yong.. well, she did nth wrong.. but asked to do the second time.. well, it shld be double promotion!! Hafiq and khid were also called for redoing .. both did nth wrong too..

sth not fair!! some ppl told me they did some steps wrong.. but were not asked to redo!! so unfair! and sway sway, i was just in front of the judge lo.. its so obvious to notice my mistakes. Hon sonn said

"just now, when u needa do again, shawn and me very gan jiong leh.."

"y leh?"

"cos is u teach us one ma.."

lolx... pai seh ah.. made ur gan jiong for nth..

well, after the majority of us had finished our grading, its zi jie and Thiha's turn.. both of them onli.. and zi jie was not doing quite well.. the judged asked him to redo for 3 times!! we were all super worried for him.. can onli see him from the audience seats.. which is very far from where he was..

we were all doing the *pass our luck to him* actions.. see our unity level?? so united!! but, the judge asked him to do it alone after everyone has finished wif those ppl who needa redo also.. and we waited to support him.. woots!! he got it right!! and we cheered!! when he came up and joined us, all the guys went to congratulate him.. i see the unity in us!! although we are not close, but we are very united.. its an irony.. classmates shld be more united.. but i dun see any unity in us.. whereas, tkd, we dun see each other everyday, yet we have more than wad we expect.. keep it up guys!!! love ya lots!

alright.. gonna chiong for my assignments liao.. ciaos!!

boredom

jus got back hm.. there's this seminar talk for all sports CCA.. and the seniors told me its compulsory to attend.. well, so we went to TCC and attended it.. GOSH! the begining was still quite nice.. a hip hop dance by our tp students... got one guy wearing green very shuai.. hehe..

after tt, the session got boring... I played hangman, Bingo, tic-tac-toe and fortune telling wif gui wen and catherine.. lol.. wad the hell.. zi jie, daryl and the rest were playing poker cards.. the volleyball gals were eating snacks.. chocs, panda biscuit, fresh milk.. picnic sia!!

until 9pm, there's this stretching session.. asking the dragon boat captain to lead us stretching.. we entertained them for a while den went off liao.. bth.. as we walked down the stairs, the ppl were cursing and yelling.. haha.. its super boring la!

den, as we walked out of engin block, there's this guy, driving a buggy.. scolded us for leaving the talk half way.. said tt we were very irresbonsible, bla bla bla.. den he wanted us to ans him whether we'll be happy if we r the speakers who see the ppl went off half way? BUT

we kept silent!! total silence! a very uneasy silence.. i was wondering who will be answering him..
after being prompted by him, we remained silenced still.. he pai seh.. den said 'up to ur whether wanna follow me back" and drove off embarassed! lolx.. we were like -_- and we continued to walk out of engineering blk..

we went to eat dinner cum supper at the opposite sch's coffee shop.. the ppl were funny.. esp wei sheng.. cracked up the whole lot of us.. well, i'm so super blur and stupid jus now.. at the coffee shop there.. i wanted to take out my wallet.. but, i can't see it.. so, i jumped to conclusion tt i've lost my wallet.. and got myself so super worried.. and dragged catherine and gui wen into nervous situation..they offered to lend me money but i said i've lost my appetite.. i tried to call yan ling.. cos i went to eat lunch wif her in the afternoon.. wanna ask her whether she got see my purse not.. but no ans..

i'm so sad.. dunno y also, got calmed down after a while.. and i searched my bag again.. guess wad? i found my wallet inside my bag!! lolx.. den i showed cat and gui wen.. cat was like "cheat my feelings sia!" lolx.. sorry.. u think i wan to cheat meh? i'm super worried also..

after my wallet has been found, my appetite came back... haha.. we decided to order diff dishes to share.. and the seniors introduced some dishes tt are nice.. the guys are so envy at us when the dishes came.. lolx.. den grace said " now, u noe y tkd ppl are all so heavy liao ma?" lolx.. wadever..

we ate till 10 plus den came back hm.. its a boring session.. but i had fun wif my tkd friends!!

ps: hafiq, Naz and khid and the rest of the tkd ppl who stayed thru out the session, have high patience limits!!! *salute*

some are going back tml too.. for the sake of seal points and the refreshments.. but i'm not gonna going back.. i dun wan to sacrifice my wink.. its so bloody early can? i would rather sleep a lil longer den go out wif da loo..

shit!! braces appointment tml again!!

internet connection

woots! my internet connection is finally back to normal.. though at times, it kept disconnects.. wad to do.. mus wait till dunno wad thingy has finished repairing.. yupx..

god damn!! i'm so disappointed.. Before i went to BJ, i asked mom whether it will snow there anot.. den she said 'maybe'.. alright, i went there, wif the hope of witnessing snowing again.. but, sad to say, throughout my 5 days stay, there were NOTHING.

but, after i came back on 27th night, it snowed on the 28th or 29th!!! wth! can't it snow earlier? *roll eyes*

alright, i got back all my term test papers. sad to say, i wont get a free water bottle liao.. i didn't meet his target of getting 75% and above for e-maths 2.. i got 50% onli..

and i failed my ckt.. but its expected.. so, i dun give a damn.. eh, as for Dfund, i'm very happy wif it.. got 83%.. woots!!

congrats to u guys, who did well for the term test..

being selected to go for the tkd open hse.. sian.. needa demonstrate.. i sway sway chosed for the attacking and defending part.. hon sonn too.. i've to be thrown.. irritating.. i know i'm short, tt's y i'm always chose to be the one being thrown.. but isn't it more amusing tt when a shortie can defend very well?

woah.. today Baygone so yan dao.. lolx.. :P can kick bloody hell high la.. *envy*

i'm lazy to upload fotos.. sorry... since my internet connection has not fully recovered, let's wait till its recovered den i shall upload??

kk.. got to wake up early tml.. ciaos!